Beautiful Doll

"She got the call today
One out of the gray
And when the smoke cleared
It took her breath away

She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess we're all one phone call from our knees

We're gonna get there soon

If every building falls
And all the stars fade
We'll still be singing this song
The one they can't take away

I'm gonna get there soon
She's gonna be there too
Cryin' in her room
Prayin' oh, Lord come through

We're gonna get there soon

Oh, it's your light
Oh, it's your way
Pull me out of the dark
Just to shoulder the weight
Cryin' out now
From so far away
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love..."

-Mat Kearney, Closer to Love

Mat Kearney says it best, some news just brings you to your knees and I got some of that news this morning from my mom. It was one of those rush around the house typical mornings. We got in a little late last night so as you can imagine this morning was a little rough getting up and out of bed. My mom called but I just thought she might be checking in to make sure we got home okay since I didn't get to talk to her last night. I didn't get to my phone the first time she called as I was trying to run around the house so I could get to work on time. Then she called exactly 3 minutes later. I rushed to the phone and shouldn't have snapped but I was in a hurry. I have a bad habit of doing that and I've been trying to work on it. I just get so rushed and don't realize my tone of voice and snap. I could tell in her voice that something just wasn't right. She wasn't calling just to check on me. This was a different call. The dreaded call that no one ever wants to get. She then told me the news, Poppy had passed away in his sleep. A part of me just died inside and fell to my knees and I think I just kept saying "noo, noo, noo." Thoughts kept running through my head that we hand't visited him in so long living out here in Utah and Gordie never got to meet him and of course Baker never got to meet him either. Although one day, one sweet day we all will be together again. I do know he now is with my grandmother where he belongs. He passed in his sleep which is the best way to go, I suppose not in pain at least. I just miss him so much. Daddy, I know you will read this so please be strong and know we all love you so so so much.

We love you so much Poppy! Fly safely to heaven.

Here's to you Poppy and all the times you sang me this song! One more time for you...